Baby #3

Dear Baby,

Where do I begin? How can I even begin to tell you how special you are to me and to your daddy and to your big brother Carter? We are so excited to meet you in November. November! Do you hear me baby? You need to stay put until Thanksgiving Day. That is your due date and I am firmly holding you to it! November is a very special month. That is when your twin brothers Carter and Grayson were born. We tried for a very long time to get pregnant with them and it was a rocky pregnancy from start to finish. Sweet baby Grayson only lived for a month and I am sad that you will not get to meet him (although, who knows? Maybe you have already met!) After the boys were born we were pretty certain that we could not have any more babies. Your daddy and I decided that we would probably try to adopt a baby sometime in the future.

A few months ago, I started not feeling very well. I knew something was up but wasn't sure what it could be. I never thought I could be pregnant! You can only imagine the shock I felt when I saw all three positive pregnancy tests. It took three pregnancy tests, a blood test, and an ultrasound for me to believe you were even there! I couldn't believe it. What a wonderful, exciting, surprising miracle you are already.

Today your daddy and I got to see you again on the ultrasound. You are so much bigger! You were dancing and flipping and kicking and trying very hard to suck on your thumb. We both got very teary-eyed thinking how perfect you are and how lucky we are to have you in our lives.

Now, I'd like to inform you that I am doing my best to be a good home for you. But you are not making it easy! Because of you I have been so sick and exhausted and food no longer tastes good and I have been craving really gross food that I would never normally eat, like beef jerky! Yuck! Now that I am in my second trimester, I am really hoping that you give me a break. I'd like to go back to eating healthy foods and having energy to chase after your very active 18 month old brother! Carter is the sweetest boy ever and I know he is going to love you as soon as he sees you. I promise you that he will teach you everything he can and will look after you and protect you.

I can't wait to find out if you are a girl or a boy. I keep dreaming about you being a little girl but daddy keeps thinking you are a boy. Either way, you are perfect and we adore you. I have been thinking about baby names but I think I need to meet you first before I can decide. I wonder if you will look more like Carter (who looks like daddy) or more like Grayson (who looked like me). I think about you every day. It's hard not to think about you now that my tummy is growing big and I "see" you everytime I look down!

I love you sweet baby. You are already a joy to have in our lives and your family is very excited to meet you.... in NOVEMBER!

Love always and forever,

Mommy